Ok, so maybe not exactly the way I thought I would.. but I've found that feeling- that flutter in my stomach- that excited beyond believe- can't get my mind of it feeling of butterflies in my stomach in the most unexpected way.

I never thought I could ever be so excited about one of my friends having a baby. I mean, yeah, I knew I'd be excited- but I didn't expect it to necessarily happen NOW. I should have known something was up- when she asked me what I would do if she told me she was pregnant.. and honestly in a way it's weird because I would normally never blow something like that off without overanalyzing it.. but this time.. I guess it was just meant for her to tell me when she was ready- so my brain knew not to overthink it until she was ready for me to know. Funny how things work out.. The more I think about "the thing" as she insists on calling him for now ( he is NOT an "it" and we've decided he's a boy so I will refer to him as "he" or "Squishy" and sometimes "thing" just so you know. don't ask about the "Squishy" part.) the more excited I get. This child will be SO spoiled no one will know what to do. I've already started planning things I'll buy him... and showers to throw.. and wow. I'm so excited. :)

well anyways.. I'm just excited.. I havent really been this excited about something in a while.. :) I love you Jessie!

We're havin a baby!!! hehe

OH MY GOODNESS! quick story! I swear I think I had customers tonight that were with their "mail order" dates or something-- it was 2 guys with 2 Japanese girls and they kept talking about how they're not used to being in America and blatently talking about sex and such.. it was crazy but very amusing at the same time. And then Brandi Brocker, Daniel Burnett and Amanda Ross came in.. which was completely ironic b/c i haven't seen any of them since senior year (cept daniel we go to ksu together) and i was JUST at Brandi's apartment. crazy right?

So anyways. I had a pretty good weekend. On Thursday Ricky and I went down (or over.. or up?? i dunno who cares) we went to Athens and had a really good time. I got to meet Amy (Ricky's girlfriend) and we all went to see Pirates 3 (which is not a very good idea if you haven't seen the 2nd one FYI!!) and then we made tequila sunrises and just hung out before bed.. then woke up the next morning and after breakfast/lunch decided we needed to polish off that tequila.. so we made some "on the border" shooters and played guitar hero- which i am seriously addicted to now! I'm not even kidding I want to own it so bad! haha. It's pathetic. SO after an afternoon of guitar hero and game show network and trick bowling on tv we needed to finish sobering up for the drive home) so we all went and took a nap until Ricky and I had to leave and sadly come back to woodstock. I went straight to Adam's graduation party and spent the night with Foster and Taylor which was...interesting.. but fun too. i love my family! OH and played more guitar hero- I'm getting better! hahaha...

Then Adam graduated and it was a little sad to know that he's so grown up.. which just makes me feel old.. and silly.. I can't really believe I'm in college sometimes.

So that was pretty fun.. I had to work all day today tho. I had the worst luck ever too. I dropped and broke **6** bottles of beer creating a huge puddle of beer all over the floor and all over me. that was fun. So as if that wasn't fun enough for the day I was walking in the kitchen, which was soaking wet for God knows what reason and I slipped and fell right on my ass.

Yea. That was graceful, right? So I land in the water which soaks my shorts so I'm sore now from hitting my arm and my leg on who knows what and from landing on my boo-tay and I just broke down and cried you don't even know! So my leg's bleeding and my arm hurts and I have like a million things I need to be doing and Trevor offered me some dip and for about 2 seconds I seriously thought about taking it!!! But I calmed down and everything was ok after that. I luckily did NOT have to pay for the beers I dropped and everyone ended up happy.

I've been downloading a lot of music lately and I'm loving the random stuff I've been finding. OH and I bought Michael's CD the other day and I LOVE IT! I love "Excuse me" and "Take me home" and I love even more that you can put the song titles together and say Excuse me, can you please take me home? haha.. Here's one of my favorite lines from "excuse me"

"I open my eyes and I wake to find that you’re not here

And after intense goodbyes realize that loneliness is my biggest fear"

ugh.. i hate that feeling. You know that horrible feeling in your stomach when you wish you were in somebody's arms and you wake up to no one. It's lonely really. but I love that warm fuzzy feeling that you get when you're falling asleep in someone's arms and it just makes you happy.

It's true, I think- loneliness is one of my biggest fears. Some of the lyrics from Michael's songs are just perfect- and I love it when that happens. I'm gonna have to say "Take Me Home" is my absolute favorite song so far!

"I'm walking out again tonight- don't wanna come home alone"

"Can I ask you something--- Can you take me home?"

"I'm not exactly sure where I have ended up now- but I'm finding it hard to care"

Oh and this is my other favorite part from "excuse me"

"Excuse me- would you take the time to read between the lines

I also REALLY like "Here By Me" by 3 doors down. I kind of don't like "relationship" type songs because it makes me feel lonely (even tho I've really enjoyed being single!!!) but at the same time I know someday when the time is right I'll find someone who I'm ready for and who's ready for me-- hopefully :) and who knows maybe I already know them. We'll just have to wait and see. But in the mean time I'm going to type lyrics from this amazing song... and then I think I'll go to bed. It's getting late.

"I hope you're doin fine out there without me

Cause I'm not doin so good without you.

Things I thought you'd never know about me

were the things I guess you always understood.
So how could I have been so blind for all these years

Guess I only see the truth through all this fear

And living without you..."

"And I can't take another day without you

Cause baby I could never make it on my own.

I've been waiting so long just to hold you

And to be back in your arms where I belong..."

"Sorry I can't always find the words to say"

nothing can happen until you

MAKE IT HAPPEN

I'm not sure why, but writing in this thing is like a stress-relief...

SO today I had to work.. was first cut this morning so I had about a 2 1/2 hour break so during that break I went and picked up Ricky and we FINALLY hung out (i've been bugging him all week about it so he'll be glad that I'll stop bugging him now)

So I took his broke- ass to chick fil a and we had a nice little chat and remembered good old times b/c he found his old yearbooks and oh so kindly pointed out all my lovely pictures from elementary school. (thanks a lot buddy)

So that was fun.. then I was informed by Kim that we are moving in together by September. So we'll see how that goes...

So then it was back to work and I was all happy cuz Dane let me be 1st cut- thanks dane!!

AND tomorrow is Joe's bday and I bought him a card and had everyone sign it at work and then I bought him 2 4-packs of Red Bull (he's addicted) and wrote all over them "Joe's ONLY" and "Do NOT Touch" and such- b/c one day he brought one into work and somebody stole it and BOY was he PISSED!! So that was really funny b/c he was totally surprised and it made me smile =)

Oh and I "Caught" Jeremy "Cheating" on me today with jake- hahaha... if you don't get that.. just don't even worry about it cuz it's a loonnnnnnnnnnnng story there lol

SO now I'm gonna go take a shower, get dressed, and go party with my friends. YAY

then I get to wake up REALLY early, take my BEST friend to a class (and I would ONLY do that for my BEST friend!) and then go camping with the family! So I'm pretty excited.

Hope ya have a GREAT night!